Week 14

Yesterday was a sad day for one of our OPM members, Karin. She lost her twin boys at 17 weeks and 3 days. She delivered them yesterday morning. I am so sad for her and DH. My thoughts and prayers are with them.

Fruit of the week:

A Lemon




Your adorable little fetus is busy with thumb sucking, toe wiggling, and (not so cute but equally amazing) making urine and breathing amniotic fluid as the liver, kidneys and spleen continue to develop. Lanugo (thin, downy hair) is growing all over the body for warmth

Where is that girl?

Today I went for my nuchal translucency scan with Proff. Nicholaou. According to him, things seem fine with both babies. The risk of downs is 1 in 3100 for each of them. He says this is good Is it?
Anyway, he also said that both babies are boys. Well, to say I am dissapointed is an understatement. I am broken! I so desperately wanted a girl! I always have, and always thought I would have a girl.

So I left the doctor's room trying to keep my composure, and burst nto tears once I got into my car. It seems as though this whole journey has just been one huge emotional rollercoaster. From the moment I got my first beta!

Some of you know how I have been battling with the twin issue. (See previous posts. I dont have the energy right now to give a summary)And now I have taken another blow with the fact that they are both boys.

The question I ask myself is: Where is that girl who so badly wanted children? So badly, that she would do ANYTHING to have a baby. She has gone and I am now someone eho still wants to reverse this whole mess. I dont even know if I want children anymore. Is this normal????
I see children and I want to cry.

Week 13

Cant believe I am 13 weeks already! (Well, 13 weeks and 2 days)
But I am having a rather down day today. I am back to thinking "I cant do this"
I look at my home situation and wonder how the hell I am going to make this work. I live in an upstairs unit in a townhouse complex. I have to get up a few steps from where I park the car, and then up 2 sets of stairs to my house. Doing that with a twins stroller and to babies?
Then, the second bedroom is so small. I dont think I will fit 2 cots and a chest of drawers in the room, never mind a feeding chair etc.
My car: Will I fit a pram into the boot?

This just gets me so down. A lady on OPM just posted pics of her nursery, and I just wanted to cry. It was so beautiful and so spacious
It just makes me sad.

Anyway, here is this weeks fruit:

A Peach




Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords... savor this, their non-functional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with a head now only one third the size of the body. Intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy. (Much more convenient.)

Week 12

I went for my first scan with my new gynae yesterday. (Well, not my gynae, but his partner) I was only due to go on Friday, but there was a measles scare at work, so I phoned the gynae and was told to come in for tests. While I was there, his partner decided to scan me. Both babies are doing well. Heartrates both at 167bpm and 58mm and 59.9mm in length. The one baby was very active.

Now this gynae wants me to see Prof Nicolaou for a nucheal fold thingie. SHe also sent me for the down's syndrome blood test. Is it not a bit early to have that test done?

Anyway, here is the fruit of the week:

A plum



As you move into the second trimester, baby shifts into the growth and maturation stage. After weeks in the critical development stage, almost all of baby's systems are fully formed

My 11 Week And 1 Day tummy

Ok, I have finally come out of hiding, so to speak. I have been going through quite a rough time, but I think I am getting there. There are days where I feel I can handle this, and other days where I know I cant. It has seriously been a mind f@%k for me. I know some people have thought that I am ungrateful (I know this because 1 person even sent me a PM and told me that she was angry with me for feeling the way I have been feeling)

Anyway, I am now 11 weeks and 1 day, and my tummy is already showing. I posted the following pics on OPM today, and the girls there said I wasnt that big, but I dont know if they were just been supportive or actually meant what they were saying ;)
So, what do you think? Honest opinions please. Am I going to be really big with this pregnancy?

Week 11

A lime



Your fetus currently enjoys a 1:1 ratio between body and head, and has skin so transparent that blood vessels show right through. But, fingers and toes are no longer webbed, and hair follicles, tooth buds and nail beds are forming -- setting up a significantly more attractive future.

Week 10

Prune




With bones and cartilage starting to form and vital organs beginning to function, baby is making major progress. Body length will almost double in the next three weeks, and arm joints are now working. (Soon, legs will too.)

Will be more verbal with my posts soon