Socializing On The WWW

I never spent much time on the internet until I decided to venture into the fertility world. Before then I would check my emails, and that was about it. But, since I embarked on this journey, I have become completely addicted!!!

First I was Googling fertility clinics in South Africa, and if they would treat single ladies, and how much AI would cost. etc. Once that stage past, it was googling my diagnosis, such as: High prolactin levels, normal FSH, endometriosis, laparascopy etc.

Then it was googling about the AI procedure. How it is done, the do's and dont's, the success rates etc

Then it was the dreaded 2ww! Googling and over analyzing every twinge, ache, and pain, hoping that they were all signs of a BFP!!

But most importantly for me, it brought me to my online friends. First the friends I had made on the first forum that I was part of, and then OPM. So many members there are thanking me for creating the forum, but the truth is, I created it a little bit for selfish reasons - I needed support and friendship through this journey. To talk to people who have been in or are going through the same situation as I am. To share things with people who will not critize me or my decision. And just to talk to! I am so glad that so many ladies have found the support and friendship that they were looking for.

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine I would have found all these amazing ladies on OPM. I have met some of them, and they are truly remarkable women! And I know that the ones I havent yet met are also like them! We all have this wonderful bond with each other!

At our first OPM get together I was so nervous meeting the ladies. But once we were all there, it felt like we had known each other for years and years!

And all this because I went to Google!!! Thank you google for taking me to where I am today!! And thank you ladies for making all of this possible!

I Need Honest Opinions Please

Most of you know that I have been told that I need to do IVF in order to conceive. My eggs are crap and are running out.

My last tests (2 months ago) werent that great:

AMH 0.9
FSH. 12.7

I have been reading on the internet that chances are minimal. So really, am I wasting my time and money?

Realistically what are my chances?

I am having doubts

About this new clinic, and this isnt a good thing!

Went for blood tests this morning. Now at my previous clinic I would go in at 7am for bloods and at 10am I would phone for results. This place, however, operates differently. I went in at 7am for bloods, most of them will be ready this morning, except for the AMH results. They only run that batch on a Friday, and it was too late to get mine in today( what time do they run them from? 4am? I mean, is it too complicated to squeeze in 1 more?) But now I have to make an appointment with the FS to discuss the results. Ok......
The earliest appointment I can get is..........................

the 12th of MAY. For fucks sake, I muist wait virtually an entire month to get the results?????? I think that is stupid! What if for example my estrogen levels are low and I need to go on meds to improve it. I must wait a whole month now to get told this, and only then start meds. Everything ends up setting me back by a month because of this crap!!!

I seriously want to cry. I am so fucking frustrated!

AF, oh AF, where art thou?

Typical friggin AF!! When you dont want her, she arrives bang on time, in all her glory, and when you do want her, she is AWOL!!!!!!!!

I want her to arrive tomorrow so that I can do my tests on Friday. I really, really, REALLY dont want to have to schlep through to the clinic on the weekend to arrive there by 7am!!! I need my sleep time.

So please, AF if you are listening, please speed it up and arrive tomorrow, or take a train, check out the scenery, and rock up here on Sunday.

Pretty please?

**UPDATE: She arrived 30min after writing this post!!! Yippeeeee!!! So that means my day 1 would be tomorrow (Thurs) right?